Striving to Thrive

I get started with these plans to keep up with my blog, but as everything else seems to go, it doesn’t go as planned. But, I am here and will persevere.

A few weeks ago I finished another semester of my undergraduate college career. This semester was challenging as I expected, but I still managed to keep my 3.5 GPA, so I can’t complain too much. The hardest part of this semester was “running” the Student Veteran Association that I am currently president of. It’s not a position I ever thought I would hold, but have enjoyed all the opportunities that have come with it. I have met so many new people and have had the chance to make a difference in some people’s college experience all while building a community to support the military personnel on campus. It truly is amazing what can get done if you have the right people with the right motivation to make a difference. The challenge I faced in this position was being inadequately prepared for the tasks it involved; I was not given any notes, contacts, or tips on how to get things done. I was trying to manage and plan for this wonderful organization with no known knowledge of what I was doing except for anything I could remember from last year. Sure this was a challenge, and I wish it wasn’t that way, but it also forced me to build myself as a professional individual and better problem solver to get events organized for our members to participate in and to hopefully build the community. There are always positives to be found.

Since I held this position and I have the wonderful diagnosis of cancer that I am still battling, the majority of the work I did for the organization and school was done in a hospital setting. Wasn’t the ideal place, but things are to get done so I can continue moving forward. It’s becoming normal to see me in a hospital bed surrounded with books, my laptop, and of course the medical supplies that are needed. I have adapted pretty well to what I need medically though, so it doesn’t bother me as much any more. Everything takes time, it’s just finding the patience to wait.

I did take a trip out to NM this past November though and did manage to get on a clinical trial and I am very excited to see what the results will be, even if they are not what I hope for. So far, from what I am told, the trial is going well and as planned with the results they were hoping for, so that’s nice to hear for once. I have to go out to NM one weekend a month for the 6 months the trial will span, but other than that, all the medication and treatment with the trial can all be done at home. I also starting my (hopefully) last round of chemo about 2 weeks ago. They still have me doing every Friday as chemo day which I can work with. It’s a heavy dosage and my body has really struggled with every chemo round I’ve been through, so they don’t want to overload my body and give time between each dose for my body to prepare for the next. I guess that’s part of why I’ve been fighting for over a year and half now.

I am currently on a plane making my way down to Orlando for a SVA conference and I am so thankful that I was medically cleared to fly, even if it requires wearing a face mask, disinfecting everything, and packing a crap ton of medical supplies into my luggage. Attending events like this keeps me feeling somewhat of a normal, healthy human who can do these things. It is frustrating to get the stares as I walk through the airport with everything, but I want to stay active and I gotta stay healthy and alive to keep active. I do know that I have to keep aware of my limits though and try not to overdo it. I need to take time for my body to rest and recoup, including doing my IV fluids in my room and taking all the joyous medications. Just trying to survive so I can thrive in this thing called life.

That’s about all I got right now for this update. Life is going as good as it can right now and I’m “comfortable” and aware of the steps I need to take to get to the end and final conquer this battle. It’s been a long time coming and there’s still a ways to go, but I will make it. I will survive.

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